Clumsy

Stupid first pangs of infatuation. I've met someone, I was going along fine when I thought he only wanted to be friends. But I have this . . . just intense attraction to him, I can't explain it. I've more or less confessed this to him - but he kind of avoided answering in return, although implied he might be interested too! I hope so.

I can't stop thinking about him, and I feel heartsick about the whole thing. Blarg!

Bask falcons

Nothing in this life is supposed to go well for me I think. For the first time in awhile I'm really happy and excited about something, so naturally I sit around stressing and reeling in panic attacks that something is wrong. Just like that I've made a big fool of myself or something. I dispair about it so much during the day my chest hurts and I get all wheezy and then I go and lock my keys in the car!

Then I find out things are cool and chill as all that worry was over nothing and then I sob because why can't I just be happy?! I'm trying to be, trying so hard to be cool 8l

I'm going to hit my head into my desk a few times now and slide under it for comfort!

"I never knew loneliness until I met you. The pain of being alone, the fear of losing you."