Worst day of my life

I lost the baby

Just a thought

Never turn down a chance to have sex, if you put off having a passionate night together with your loved one, you never know what could come up the next day and keep you apart for weeks.

Heartbreaker

I just can't get past this terrible depression about the possibility I'm losing the baby. It's been my everything and my driving force to go on and my little ray of hope about my future and I'm losing it...

I hate that there is nothing I can do to stop it. It's been a week of bleeding and no signs of change. I just hate this, I want to stop crying. I want to believe all the positive people but I dont feel positive in my heart.

Miles said if I lose it we will try again but not anytime soon. I hate that I am selfish and don't want to wait, if I lose it I want to try again right away. But I want this one. I want this baby. If I have to try again, I am going to not go to the doctor until 12 weeks, I don't even want to tell anyone. I don't want to jynx it. My heart is just breaking.

Depression

It's turned red now with a constant ache and back pain. I don't know how much more praying I can do and tears I can hold back before I explode.

Never been so scared

Had my first morning sickness today, it reallllyyyyy sucks. Also having some spotting which is scaring the hell out of me.

I do not want to lose my baby. I don't know what Id do. Praying everything is fine.